This and That is Life.

Where are you now? What do you do? Whom do you talk to? How do you feel?

Saying goodbye to someone is not necessarily the hardest part, especially if It was a proper send off. Sometimes, the goodbye isn't official, but you know it gradually happens, like leaving school and parting ways to pursue our dreams later in life. That's the worst part you know, when moving on with life, and somewhere deep in your soul, knowing that that person, who before this was the center of your life, isn't even on the sidelines anymore. The bottom line is, they no longer play an essential role in life.

You promised you would never forget me. That we would still see and keep in touch with each other. But I know that those are sadly empty promises and dazzling disillusionments. You won't forget me literally. You just.. will in a way. And I don't hold you against that, because I know I will for you too. Unless both of us tried, eventually and quite simply put, life happens. You will have yours, and I mine. Because life is constantly changing, it's impossible to fall back into the same routines we were so comfortable with a long time ago.

I see one or two of your updates on Facebook via homefeed, it's no longer related to the life you had last year. I myself am different from the person you probably still think I am. Sometimes I wish you could have met the person I am today. I'm not the same girl two years ago.

But do I wish to go back to the times we were happy? When I had you to keep me company, and to look forward to being with you and talking to you? No, I don't, because I know no matter how much I gaze at the footsteps I've left in the sand behind me, I'm not going to be able to retrace them back.

I know a lot of my Reflections/Thoughts-on-Life posts are mostly about how life just moves on, and it's always changing. Well, I still take time to accept how that happens :)

"Life goes on, unmindful of beginning, crisis or catharsis, moving forward like a slow, dusty caravan of nomads."

~ from The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)

Today is better than yesterday. I have grown a little, matured a little, laughed more, smiled more, cried more and loved more.

No, if you ask me, I'm not turning back the clock.